Intern Search 2015

So, here we all are. April 2015 and I am looking for an internship. I have applied at a handful of places both in Oklahoma City (my native land) and Texas (the closest large market). Pending all of these applications, I can't help but wonder if I will end up somewhere that I want to. Every place I have applied at has its own strength, and much like the employees, those individual strengths make up the genetics for a fantastic work environment. 

Whether it is a full service agency or not, all of these companies bring something to the table that I admire. While this is certainly true, I can only hope that they will see that I could contribute something to their table. 

Things about me that you won't find on my resume:

• My incredible sense of humor. 

• My set of moral obligations. 

• My sense of leadership and ownership. 

• My sense of self. 

• My contributions to group work. 

• My generally happy demeanor. 

• My community side.

Here's hoping that I seal the deal with one of the companies I have applied to, I know I would be thrilled to work with any one of them. 

People in Glass Houses Sink Ships

I have been having a bit of a rough patch in my life lately, dealing with the day to day of school and work and general things. As each day passes I seem to tense myself up more and more over trivial matters. So, today I wrote down a list of everything I am stressing out about. Then in another column, I wrote what I can do about these stresses. It seemed surprisingly simple that the solution of "I need more money" was to get another job. And while getting another job isn't exactly going to be easy, it gave me a sense of peace to be able to have something to kind of just say "chill out". 

I have always been pretty high strung, as a product of my mom who dealt with a lot in her short life as a single parent, I believe I learned some of my anxious habits from her. I also believe I picked up some of her less attractive personality traits. She was an incredible woman, but she had insecurities like we all do. I learned to worry about money from her. I learned how to worry about bills, and debt collectors too. I also learned how to love someone unconditionally, no matter how they break your heart. I learned how to make the best comfort foods, and little tips and tricks about making people laugh, and tweaking your personality. I blame her for my insufferable sense of humor. So where does the vicious cycle of traits end? I have seen it before, my cousin is critical of herself because her mom is critical of herself. I am emotionally almost codependent on people whose opinions I value. I shouldn't need permission to live my own life or make my own choices. 

It's a harsh world when you really think about it, and because I lost my mom so early in the stage where you need to learn coping the most, I'm not sure I ever really learned how to properly. It's a work I progress, and a change that cannot happen overnight, but I am hopeful for a bright future for myself. I bring a lot to the table and I will no longer allow myself to sit on the edge of the room when there is a meeting at the table. Being present is everything. Being a gift is something different. 

A Dime

"Next time you get dumped, hand this to him and tell him to go buy himself a cheap piece of ass and to keep the change." -Bettie 

An older woman, with a sense of self the likes of which I had never seen, asked me Monday morning at my day job what was wrong because I looked pretty down. After explaining that it was because I had been dumped the day before, she said "oh whatever honey, you don't need him anyway." With her loud voice and her unmistakeable attitude, I actually started to feel a little bit better. 

Bettie is a member here at my day job. She had no obligation to try to make me feel better. Most people don't even respond to our "good morning" greetings. But the fact that she did speaks volumes to me. She spread a little love where she didn't have to. Sure, I celebrated the break up with Starbucks and a glass of wine, but I really felt the love here. Bettie genuinely cared that I had something to hold onto with this. Good people are still around. Good people are still being good people. 

Are you a good person? Are you doing everything you can to be a good person to your fellow being? Think about it. 

Do Good & Do Well. 

Sundance Film Festival and Me

Today, a movie that I helped make (with an extremely talented professor of mine) was released to the public for viewing. This is a huge moment for me and everyone involved. 

It is so incredible to know that my name was on something that premiered at Sundance Film Festival, even if I couldn't be there. I am so blessed to live this life. I am so thrilled that this has fallen in my lap, and I am running out of words to be honest. I need to thank some people:

To Morgan, thanks for telling me to join FVC, we wouldn't be here without you. To my dad, thanks for having no faith in me, I needed that to draw from. To my friends, thank you for always staying around. It's so incredible how many great people I am surrounded by. I am so blessed. 

Do you want to watch it?? 

http://indiancountrytodaymedianetwork.com/2015/02/03/watch-isabelles-garden-exclusive-premiere-sundance-honored-short-film-158988

Hey, there, it's been a while

So, when I checked how long it had been since I blogged about what is happening in my busy life, I realized just how much I missed telling no one about my life. So here it goes:

I have made the conscious decision to cut almost all ties with my father and do what ever I have to do to succeed without him. I'm dating someone who is pretty great, I'm about to start a new workout plan, and I'm actually having a really good time in school and such. It's a good life, at least that's what I'm told. 

Communications 211

It's been exactly one month since my feet have stepped on this hideously colored carpet. One professor. 24 students. The beige walls, and a tacky brown accent wall look back at me as I search for an empty seat. The projector hums overhead as I take a seat, third row back, end of the row. Professor Martin stands in front, with a McCafe cup, and her New Balance sneakers. She tells us of the joys of Media Mix Analysis, and the (cringe) math involved. 

Words can't possibly explain the feeling I have towards this room in my favorite building on campus: Mass Communication. Room 211 (and 215) have provided so many opportunities to me that I never thought I would experience. The opportunity to work in the best groups for group work, the opportunity to learn from my favorite professor, the opportunity for me to explore my talents, outside of what I already knew. I have built a resume, a business (from the ground up), I have built a brand, and found out a little about my personal brand too. 

Room 211 isn't just about the major, but the people I share/have shared the room with. Sandy Martin, professor. Chelsea Ratterman, best friend & confidante. Breanna Young, general bad ass. James Turnbow, bearded wonder. Matt Janey, chocolate wonder. This semester will bring plenty of new faces to 211 with me, and I wouldn't have it any other way. 

Resolution Season

As the new year comes to us, it's time to reflect on 2014, and all I will do and become in 2015. 

2014:

I saw the beginning of the year ring in with some friends. We played UNO and Scattergories and had a fun sleepover where I read a bed time story to my best friends as we all laid down to fall asleep. The Spring semester unveiled a 4.0 GPA and a new desire to succeed in my educational endeavors. Summer took a toll as I took 10 hours in a short span of time, but still managed some decent grades. Fall semester seems to have become the best so far, as I worked full time and did full time school. All the while gaining an office in my sorority, as well as the best person in the world as my best friend. I finished out Fall with a new sense of being, happy to have succeeded academically. 2014 brought me some amazing networking, it brought me more into the OKC and Dallas Ad communities, and it opened doors for me that I hope never close! 

2015:

2015 will see me applying to internships in OKC and Dallas, as well as working to better myself as a whole. It will see me starting my senior year of college and taking steps towards my career of choice. I look forward to what this year has in store for me. 

Resolution Revolution:

1) I resolve to train for a half marathon, to be ran by the end of 2015.

2) I resolve to be more positive and reflective of positive things, not only towards others, but towards myself as well.

3) I resolve to sleep earlier, and to wake up earlier. 

4) I resolve to eat better, ingest good for me, live good for me. 

5) I resolve to start lifting weights and to create a healthier lifestyle in my house. 

I wish you luck while you make your resolutions, and I hope you have the best New Year. Happy 2015, y'all. 

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